theres a million other girls who do it just like you

I love when songs say what you are feeling:

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change
Once a whore, you're nothing more, I'm sorry that'll never change
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but I passed it up, now look this way
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like, it's "easy if you do it right"
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse

-- Paramore - Misery Business

I always thought friendship is the most important thing in the world. When boyfriends cheat, or dump you, true friends will stand by your side through it all. Maybe people go through shitt to realize who their real friends are. Maybe life is constantly testing us. It just really sucks that in order to pass you have to go through hell...and get hurt. I'm starting to realize that reverse karma seems more applicable to my life.

My next tattoo I swear will be a wave...because thats how life is for me. A rocky ocean no matter how good of a sailor I am. Hah.

How is it possible to have such bad luck?

Headphones. My head phones I bought like 2 months ago comped out on me. Yes I listen to music pretty much any time I am not talking or doing work...so that may explain it, but get this. I went and bought a new pair after work and on the walk home I was loving life, as much as i can be, because I had music back. Then, when I got on the bus to come here (my sisters) one ear stopped working!

Technology hates me. Printer wasn't working for me at work either.

So much bad luck. This better get me a life of gravefullness and consistency in my next life.

Wow. I am so not Halloweeny today. I have been Halloweeny every day but today. In fact, the fact that it is Halloween makes me sick. Because it pretty much makes me nostalgic...and that makes me sad.

Grade 9 Semi - seeing boys you like dance with someone else. You'd think that feeling would go away once you go through college. Nope. I am the girl sitting on the side lines watching all the couples dance right now. Bleh how unbelievably depressing.

I need alcohol. Actually...thats a lie. Thats probablly the last thing I need.

I am here with my sisters cat and its like an instant cozy feeling all of a sudden. This cat dosen't know whats going on in my life, but wow animals are unconditional. Then again...she's lonely since Mary and Rob have been away for about week...so she is happy to see anyone.

I need a cat.