So I haven't updated in a while. Not cause I am soooo busy. but more or less, not much has triggered me to write.
On Sunday night I went to an American Thanksgiving dinner at my friend MEgs. She is from Maine, and her mom came up to cook her and her friends a big feast! It was also sorta in celebration of her birthday. It was soooooooo awesome. The food was AMAZING and there were tons of sweets as well, including a huge puple icing birthday cake (hint hint for my bday), and squares that yours truely made :). Soooo yummy, and good company too. I wish I could have stayed longer, but getting up at 6am is pretty much the hardest task for a night owl like me. If I had my way, I'd have all my work shifts be 10-6...its the perfect time. Not too late, not too early.
Anyways after the feast I was going to head straight home and go to bed, but Kurt ended up calling me and we ended up going to Gatsby's for drinks (of course). I had a beer and shared my left over squares with the staff. I enjoy that place...i mean...i never realled hated it. But for a weird period of about a month I sorta avoided it for a number of reasons. Guess things are different now. With the year drawing to a close, I have had lots of time to think about what has happened this year and realize some things.
The accident on Barrington has not left my mind, since it happened. I did not know Jacklyn...however, after learning from Heather that she worked at Shoppers, and after seeing her picture, I realize I have spoken to her on a number of occasions in Shoppers. She was a lovely girl, and I always left with a smile afetr talking to her. Its not only her, but its a series of accidents that have been happening in the past month. Including a 73 year old woman who was hit and killed at a crosswalk in the nish....and I also just found out about antoehr woman who was killed in an accident back home. She was the mother of a guy I went to school with..
I know these things are out of my control. And I also know that I did not know these people. But its when I can't control something that it really gets to me...things in my life that I can control (like relationships) I feel much more secure about. When things happen, I can fix it, or at least do my best to. These things I cannot.
Some people are not affected. Most feel some sympathy. Some can say "that sucks" and continure living their lifes, oblivious to what happened to these people. I feel like, especially with the crosswalk accident in Halifax, these incidents have hit close to home to me. Mostly because they took place in places I have walked and driven in my life. Places I have been more than once. At one time or another, I was in the same spots as these people.
One day Iw as crossing a crosswalk while the hand was on, and could have been hit had I not walked so fast. I was having a bad day and not thinking...and when it happened, I was too caught up in my own head, my own issues...that I just said "meh...that would have sucked"....
Life is way too short. Its a shame it takes the death of others for us to realize that...butt sometimes thats just how it is. Life is far too complex to predict, yet we do it abnyways. We plan our futures, assuming nothing like that would ever happen to us or anyone we know. Yet...it can. We think about our dreams, and invision our life how we want it to be, we never think it could be taken away from us tomorrow or even today.
So, in conclusion: Cherish each day and be thankful for what you have, no matter how crappy it may seem on a bad day. Tell the people you care about how you feel everyday and live life to the fullest at every moment. Always say what you mean, always find a reason to smile.
For those effected by these recent tragedies, my thoughts are with you. Its one thing for me, a stranger to these people, to be affected......so I cannot imagine what their loved ones are going through.
I had to get it off my chest. Its been in my thoughts for about a week now...I am unsettled by it. I do not know how to deal with death and I just cannot imagine what it'd be liek to loose a close friend or family member.
2 comments:
what a thought provoking post
i <3 american thanksgiving
and sunbeams are 3-5 year old mormon children lol. it's just a name for their sunday school class. i teach that class every sunday. primary is mormon sunday school for kiddies ages 3-11. From 18 months-3 they go to nursery where they basically play with toys the whole time. from 12-18 they go to young mens/young womens which is sunday school for teenagers basically. once a year the primary (3-11 year olds) give a presentation where they get up during sacrament meeting (like mass for a catholic) and instead of hearing talks from the adults the kids sing songs and say lines and some of them give little 3 minute talks. it's generally really cute when you're watching. it's not so great when you're the one trying to put it on :/
hey sarah!
i've been feeling the same way..i was shocked when my parents told me about the maryvale accident. i've driven home alone so many snowy nights, minutes from where that accident took place. it's so scary that these things could have happened to anyone.
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